The Grudge

I have night mares each week 'bout that Fri day in May.

One phone call from you and my en ti re world was changed.

(Gm7)Trust that you be trayed, con (F)fu sion that still lin gers,

you took (Gm7)ev 'ry thing I loved and crushed it (F)in be tween your fin gers.

And I (Bb)doubt you ev er think a bout the dam age that you did,

but I hold on to ev 'ry de tail like my life de pends on it.

(Gm7)My un dy ing love,

now I (F)hold it like a grudge,

and I (Gm7)hear your voice ev 'ry time that I (F)think I'm not e nough.

And I (Eb)try to be tough,

but (F)I want to scream.

How could (Eb)an y bod y do the things you (F)did so eas i ly?

And I (Bb)say I don't care,

I (Bbsus2)say that I'm fine.

But (Bb)you know I can't let it go.

I've (Bbsus2)tried, I've tried, I've tried for so (Cm)long.

It takes strength (G)to for give,

but I (F)don't feel (Eb)strong.

The (Bb)ar gu ments that I've won a gainst you in my head,

in the show er, in the car and in the mir ror be fore bed.

Yeah, I'm so (Gm7)tough when I'm a lone

and I (F)make you feel so guilt y.

And I (Gm7)fan ta size a bout a time you're a (F)lit tle fuck ing sor ry.

And I (Bb)try to un der stand why you would do this all to me.

You must be in se cure,

you must be (Dm7)so un hap py.

And I (Gm7)know in my heart,

hurt (F)peo ple hurt peo ple.

And we (Gm7)both drew blood, but man,

those (F)cuts were nev er e qual.

And I (G)to for give, but I don't (Eb)feel (Bb)strong.

(Gm)Ooh.

Do you (Cm)feel I de served it all?

(Gm)Ooh.

Your flow (Cm)ers filled with vit (Eb)ri ol,

you built (Bb)me up to watch me fall.

You have (F)ev 'ry thing and you still want more.

And I (Eb)try to be tough,

I (F)try to be mean,

but (Eb)e ven af ter all this,